Hi F 34 I married since 9 years and have 2 children boy and girl, purely arranged marriage through matrimonial site both of us are working at that time he is not having any past relationship with anyone before and I have a relationship lasted for 6 months with zero physical intimacy and I am pure virgin at the time of marriage. Let me explain first 5 years simply. Since we both don’t have physical relationship we both are slow to consumate marriage. Both of our environments are very different with basic values are similar in 2 families we have horrible issues in understanding, he disrespected my family many times and I could not digest and hence gradually lost interest in him and when we are discussing about separation Covid fell on us and we both are at home and hence came my pregnancy after 6 months of Covid he is actually good at caring and providing, but every time he comes near to me I remember that harse husband who hurted me and my family badly hence I avaoided physical intimacy after my son is born he asked multiple times some times I gave up sometimes I stopped sometimes I resisted but never told him I am not interested. Later my daughter was born and again we took good gap and we moved to USA. He changed a lot stopped hurting my parents me and leading a reasonably good life with almost no fights. We both discuss things and perform accordingly. He is a great father and to society he is a great husband too. Still even after 10 years of marriage I could not let him touch me heart fully sometimes he gets hurt and hurts me too as he is not able to stop himself from have physical with me. Yesterday I told him I am not interested and please don’t force me to do this. He understood and stepped back. This looks small but this is my biggest problem now. Every time I gets ready little, he falls on me and sometimes I wonder should I get ready or not to face any consequences. I remember how he hurted me and my parents repeatedly. I am simple girl who doesn’t get attracted to materialistic things and stays deveotional respects elders understands everyone’s wants and behave accordingly. I only want to be good mother and help my children grow in right direction. I teach them lot of morals.
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You should excuse him for his past mistakes and move forward with mutual understanding.You should also see the change in his behaviour when he behaves father and how loving he is now. So sit together and talk and make love and care
Hurt hone ka reason bhi share kar lijiye husband se. Agar relationship me understating hai to isko apne relation ko thik karne ke liye prayog karen. Bahut se couples me ye bhi nahi hai, aur jivan ke bich padaw me rishte tut jaate hai. Jab kabhi bhi wo memories recall ho jinme aap hurted feel kar rahi ho, usi samay pe apne self talk me kahiye, I forgive my husband and forgive my self. I release this memory from my mind. Aur turant ache moments ko yaad kr lijiye. Kuch din me aap ke rishte behtar ho jane hai. God bless u.
You are carrying unresolved emotional hurt from earlier years of marriage. Your husband seems to have changed, but trust and emotional safety inside you have not fully healed. Physical closeness often becomes difficult when past pain remains active. Open conversations, and if possible couples counseling, may help rebuild emotional connection without pressure.
he is not a rogue to hurt or talk bad about ur parents, tell first what u did and what u spoke about him and his parents without telling that why u blame him all the time...if u r keeping grudge for the words spit in anger and not forgiving him think what will happen if he does the same back to you? as per ur statement u say u both had fight and understanding issue then how come u blame him alone and taking revenge on him like this...if u continue to do this u r going to lose him for sure...so be ready for it
Madam, The family that comes from you is more important than the family you come from. The day your husband start feeling unappreciated and neglected and start affair you will realise the repercussions. Saying this I don’t justify whatever he had done on you, those were absolute condemnable. But you said he changed. You need to talk out and move ahead before you realise at what cost you are punishing him.
Look dear. Since you are saying that he changed a lot and becomes good father and husband then you should Forget those old memories. 10 yrs of marriage and still you are not allowing your husband for intimacy is wrong. It is upto you but according to me you should forgive him
seems like man changed nd matured alot so for sake of ur family u should let go of his past mistakes stop overthinking nd don’t take advice from people who have made many wrong decisions themselves think what’s best for u nd ur family
Madam, you are using physical intimacy as a weapon to punish your husband. You agree the fact that your husband has changed a lot now as compared to past. You need to ask yourself why you are not able to come out of the past and keeping the same vengeance within you after so long years. You are denying the fact that your vengeance will not only destroy you and your husband, the bigger hit will be on your children. Be matured. Live in present. Unless you are happy within yourself, you cannot spread real happiness to your children.
Forgive me but we are getting ready for another confession from you stating ,, you secretly saw your husband's phone and he is having affair with a woman:. You can cuss me but you are going down that path. Either go for a counseling or talk to it out with your husband or get ready for another confession
Almost 10 years of marriage, out of which you say he has changed since 6 years, or atleast 5 to say. Just remember if he is pretending it would have lasted for few months only, not years. May be your continued rejection leads to "one thing to another" with another, and you again feel yourself as pity girl out of your prity girl image 😌
You're a syco get treated see a good doctor
Pls change your behaviour
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