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Hi F 34 I married since 9 years and have 2 children boy and girl, purely arranged marriage through matrimonial site both of us are working at that time he is not having any past relationship with anyone before and I have a relationship lasted for 6 months with zero physical intimacy and I am pure virgin at the time of marriage. Let me explain first 5 years simply. Since we both don’t have physical relationship we both are slow to consumate marriage. Both of our environments are very different with basic values are similar in 2 families we have horrible issues in understanding, he disrespected my family many times and I could not digest and hence gradually lost interest in him and when we are discussing about separation Covid fell on us and we both are at home and hence came my pregnancy after 6 months of Covid he is actually good at caring and providing, but every time he comes near to me I remember that harse husband who hurted me and my family badly hence I avaoided physical intimacy after my son is born he asked multiple times some times I gave up sometimes I stopped sometimes I resisted but never told him I am not interested. Later my daughter was born and again we took good gap and we moved to USA. He changed a lot stopped hurting my parents me and leading a reasonably good life with almost no fights. We both discuss things and perform accordingly. He is a great father and to society he is a great husband too. Still even after 10 years of marriage I could not let him touch me heart fully sometimes he gets hurt and hurts me too as he is not able to stop himself from have physical with me. Yesterday I told him I am not interested and please don’t force me to do this. He understood and stepped back. This looks small but this is my biggest problem now. Every time I gets ready little, he falls on me and sometimes I wonder should I get ready or not to face any consequences. I remember how he hurted me and my parents repeatedly. I am simple girl who doesn’t get attracted to materialistic things and stays deveotional respects elders understands everyone’s wants and behave accordingly. I only want to be good mother and help my children grow in right direction. I teach them lot of morals.