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The secret fantasy about my wife that I cannot let go

Confession: The Fantasy I Can't Get Out of My Head My wife and I have been happily married for 16 years, and together we have two wonderful children. From the outside, we probably look like any other happily married couple, but there's something I've been carrying inside for years that I've never been able to shake. Before we got married, both of us had previous relationships. My wife had an ex-boyfriend who eventually turned out to be toxic, so she ended things and moved on. As far as I know, that relationship never became physical. My story was very different. Before marriage, I had several casual s*xual relationships. They were never about love or commitment—just s*x—and everyone involved understood that from the beginning. There were no broken hearts or false promises. I've struggled with pre*ature ej*culation for as long as I can remember. S*x would usually end very quickly for me the first time, and it was only during a second round that I could last longer. In my previous relationships, o**l S*x was often part of our intimacy, which helped us continue after the first climax. After getting married, things were different. My wife has never enjoyed giving o**l S*x , and penetration has often been painful for her. Over time, we adapted our S*x life to what works for both of us. I focus on giving her pleasure in other ways, including o**l S*x , which she enjoys very much. Penetrative S*x happens less often, and we've also introduced toys into our bedroom to keep things enjoyable and satisfying. We've always found ways to make our intimacy work. But over the past few years, a new fantasy has slowly taken over my thoughts. The idea of sharing my wife has become something I think about almost every day. It isn't because I'm unhappy with our marriage or because I want someone else. Quite the opposite—I love her deeply. What I can't stop imagining is seeing her experience the kind of effortless physical pleasure that I sometimes feel I can't fully give her. I find myself fantasising about her enjoying someone else S*x ually while still remaining completely committed to our marriage. The thought of her becoming a "hotwife" has become an obsession I struggle to switch off. We've touched on the subject indirectly a few times, but she has never shown much interest. I completely respect that, and I would never pressure her into doing something she doesn't genuinely want. As part of our own private fun, we occasionally take intimate photos and videos together. We never show our faces, and everything is created with both of our consent. I sometimes share this anonymous content with other like-minded husbands online. Some of them are active in the swinging lifestyle, while others, like me, simply enjoy the fantasy and the conversations that come with it. Recently, I discovered that one of my childhood friends is in a form of open marriage. His wife confessed to having an affair, and instead of ending the relationship, they eventually found a way to move forward together. That experience opened the door for us to have very honest conversations about relationships, fantasies, and S*x uality. Talking to someone who actually knows both my wife and me feels very different from chatting with strangers online. Since he knows us personally, he can naturally picture who we are, and for reasons I still struggle to explain, that makes sharing our anonymous photos and videos feel even more exciting to me. It's difficult to explain why this fantasy has such a hold on me. Every day I imagine my wife experiencing incredible pleasure with someone else while our marriage remains strong. The thought of another man finding her attractive, thinking about her, or being turned on by her pictures somehow makes me even more attracted to her. Rather than making me jealous, it intensifies my own desire. I don't know if this is something that will always remain a fantasy or if it's simply a part of who I am. What I do know is that I love my wife, I respect her boundaries, and I would never want to risk the life we've built together. For now, this remains a confession—one that has been living in my head for years.