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Saying goodbye to the masked radiologist who made me feel safe

I m 23 yr old girl who grew up terrified of ppl around her , I never had friendships, relationship, love. Before even entering my adulthood i survived trauma that left deep scars both on my mind and skin.For years, I lived as a complete introvert, keeping my walls high and letting nobody in.Then, life dealt another way My mother diagnosed with cancer. My days began revolving around hospitals.It was exhausting, terrifying, and deeply lonely. But amid that nightmare ,destiny brought me into contact with a radiologist -a quiet,mid height man, in his mid30s man who always wore a mask. He did my multiple ultrasounds and for the first time in my entire lyf , I felt completely, unconditionally safe around a man. He didn't know about my story. He didn't know that about the blade marks or the fear I carried.He was just doing his job.But he did it with such a gentle , pure soul that he didn't need to say much for me to feel his kindness.Exactly a year ago, on 21 july , he stepped into the room while I was talking to someone, paused when he saw me , and for s spilt second time completely stopped. It was the most beautiful movie like moment of my lyf. I never saw his full face.He doesn't have an active social media footprint-just an 12 yr old video from his cllg days that i would occassionally look at when I miss him.But I didn't fall for an appearance, a title, or a status. I fell for his calm energy.Even if we didn't speak for months, whenever I met him it felt like picking up right wherever we left off. Today was my last day of going there and see him. Coming home from hospital today, i cried not out of bitterness, but bcs saying goodbye to a connection you never got to name is heavy.I tried sending him a thank you message, but he isn't active anywhere. So, I m leaving it here ... Through i m not very beautiful girl but I m above average, I had seen many guys staring or looking at me and even had experience of harassment 2-3 times, but this person was completely different he is really really a genuine soul, I do respect him and even fall for him despite the age difference, for his soul and energy he carries.