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#C27340 Okay i need help to understand if I'm interested love, obsession or just and attachment issue... I had my 1st heartbreak on 2023 it was a long 5 year relationship but he cheated on me and I came to know about it on the day of our engagement fortunately i moved on, healed and started a healthy life by 2025 and here comes the tregedy..on August 2025 I met someone he used to be my former professor from my institute but he left faculty in my 1st year he used to be very well known; almost every girl used to have a crush on him but i used to dislike his arrogant behaviour and after 4 long years just when i graduated i got a DM from him and that's how everything started... When i met him for the 1st time i realised he's not doing well at all.I provide relationship counselling and guidance to people but the irony is here i failed when it's my own turn. He's in his toughest page of life failure and lack of trust and support and I was at my highest level of self love era ..not interested in love and relationship but somehow we ended up finding comfort with eachother.I became his comfort zone and his efforts cast a spell on me too like they say "he felt 1st she felt harder " . For world he's known as a person with lies and anger issue where as I've always met a kid who don't even eat by himself..who speaks like a baby and loves being cute..a little kid who wants nothing but a bit of love and care..Now come to the reality check we are From different caste and both my elder siblings did intercaste marriage,now the pressure is on me not to marry outside the caste at all (that's my issue) (now come to his) he took me to his work place and introduced me to his colleagues and all..and i also help him out in work as an language expert and fortunately this year went so well for him where as last year it was similar to zero !! But i he's a chronic alcoholic,his social life is miserable and his past is very toxic. Multiple history of infedility and there are a lot of things which clearly says he's not the right person for me .He himself knows it and so do i .He barely calls me once in 10 days and i see no affection or care in his behaviour anymore for me..he does cares for me but it's clear he's not in love with me and me too i feel like i don't want a future with him as he's not someone i can have a future with but i can't live without him at present also.. it's like I want a present with him so badly but i don't call or text him everyday as i know he doesn't hold the same emotion for me.. after being aware of all the bad things and toxic traits of him..his betrayals ( to me )i still can't hate him or stop myself from thinking about him.I still care for him the most, Trust him the most although i know he was never truthful to me !! That's funny that i still am ready to accept him with all his bad reputation and social image!! Everyone said he acted this way just to trap me .. which some how seems even right but there's a "but" that comes in the end all the time !! I've been trying to move on from him but still there's is a never ending longing for him in my subconscious mind... Am i in a one sided love, In love, obsession or just into an attachment issue??